The LGBT world is filled with parties, gatherings, and bars spilling out onto the streets on the weekends. There are countless opportunities to volunteer, care, and connect with each other. And yet, so many LGBT people suffer from the pain of loneliness – feeling disconnected from self and others, even when standing in the middle of a crowded room. Sure, some experience the pain of isolation - not having somewhere to go, people to be with, or they stay home in fear of being out in the world. But the feelings of loneliness happen independent of what is or isn’t occurring in our lives. Loneliness is an internal experience that festers in our minds, hearts, and souls, but it’s not the real problem. It’s actually the byproduct of the fear of intimacy, of which so many LGBT people suffer.
As freedom rings more and more for LGBT people it also drums up the shadows of sadness, loneliness, self-destruction, and internalized homophobia that has plagued our beloved LGBT world for centuries. To look at our inner pain body, the place where unhealed wounds hide, feels scary – heck, it’s what we’ve been running from all along. Greater freedom means we must look at the shadows because we cannot change the laws of the land without our inner reality also changing.
It’s been a while since we’ve connected. Where have you been? … oh, wait … where have I been???
I have been in a whirlwind of change – probably the biggest shifting of my life. Let’s see … I surrendered my role as Senior Minister at Bodhi Spiritual Center, moved out of Chicago, pausing in Saugatuck, MI for a couple months, and then off to Los Angeles on December 28. As I am writing this I still have not secured our home in LA. The rental market out there is one like I’ve never seen. They are renting 5-7 days out, and some properties are experiencing bidding wars. I welcome your prayers around this knowing and affirming that my family and I manifest the perfect home for us to feel so happy, prosperous, and peaceful.